Overthinking the crap out of everything since 1962

"You think too much."

~ My Husband

~ My Sister

Yep and I can't make up my mind to save my life.

What I'm thinking about right now:
Which sewing project should I start next?
My health.
I haven't really taken many photos since my grandkids left.
What am I going to wear to my 'new' nieces wedding?
Watercolor painting.
It's hot in here.
A photo paper test print project.
Making prints for my hallway project and my sister's studio.
Am I really hungry again?
My photo card project.
Studying newborn photography.
Should we just have salmon and salad for dinner or should we have rice too?
Editing photos.
Going back to school, again.
Overthinking.

These are just some of the topics rolling around in my head, all at the same time. If I were to drill down on any one of them here, I could go on for days and it would break the internet. Aint nobody got time for that.

When I came back to this blog months ago, I stated my goal was to post and share about my journey learning more about my camera and photography. I'm still trying to do this.  I also wrote about how I wanted to post daily. HA! Well, here I am, all over the map. I'm lucky I can decide on a topic and organize my thoughts enough (sort of) to post once a week.

My whole indecision and overthinking issues peak when I'm editing my photos. This keeps me from actually getting to work on them. I know that when I sit dow to edit, I will be there for far too long unable to decide what looks best; brighter, darker, more saturation, color, or black and white. And so, so much more. Make my butt hurt from sitting too long.

I've discovered that I am doing it wrong and it's okay. I need to stop letting other people's opinions commiserate with my inner critic and just do this and all the other things I want to do. I also really need to learn and practice meditation.

I'm going to wrap up this post with a photo of my granddaughter that I've edited in color and black and white. Here, there is no question, I love both edits.

Finally feeling some flow

Creativity is contagious, pass it on. 

~ Albert Einstein 

 I’ve been practicing being in the moment. This is something I struggle with due to having the attention span of a goldfish. I’m working on it. My daughter and grandkids were in town for two weeks which brings all our adult kids home to our small house. It is wonderful and I love it! It is also over-stimulating. There is no time to stop and think when I have my whole family around me and this is why I didn't post anything last week. It is all about enjoying my time together with my noisy, crazy, busy, loved ones. Everyone is gone now and the house is quiet. A little too quiet. Yes, I’m conflicted, always. I so enjoy a quiet and tidy house and I enjoy the fabulous chaos that is my family all together. 

While in the shower yesterday, I was wondering why I suddenly feel creatively energetic and focused on a few new ideas. Then I realized that sewing is why. Basically creating something completely different is what I needed to do. I busted through my creative block with my sewing machine. Okay, really, I think it was due to my oldest child coaxing me to dig my machine out of the garage and see if it even works after oh, fifteen years or so. My thirty-two-year-old Kenmore still works like a charm. It was on then; we were off to the fabric store(s) for projects to sew.

Spending time with my exceptionally creative daughter, watching her enjoyment and passion for making beautiful dresses while growing her business makes me so proud. I can’t help feeling the need to get creating so I can be a part of something of my own like that. See, contagious!

So, projects: I’m in the middle of a few sewing projects. Making easy items to get back into it since I myself have not sewn in twenty-three years. I also bought myself a new printer for my birthday. In addition to learning how to print my photos, I have been working on a photo card project. Not sure where it will go and in the words of Seth Godin “it might not work” and yes, I may fail but I gotta try it. I feel the need.

Inspiration.
Oh yes she did bring her sewing machine with her on vacation. She had orders to fill.